When I Tell You I Love You

When I tell you I love you
Do you really see
How true it is?
How much you mean to me?

When I tell you I love you
Do you understand
My love is greater
Than each grain of sand?

When I tell you I love you
I want you to know
You're the best thing that's happened to me
I hope that it shows.

When I tell you I love you
It's because I'm speaking my mind
It's what I'm always thinking,
I've come to find.

When I tell you I love you
It's because it's true
There's no one in the world
I need more than you.


When I tell you I love you
You say "I love you too"
But does it mean the same thing
As when I say it to you?

The Ones Who Loved

April 18, 2010

Each night i sleep
But before I do
My thoughts are always
Still of you

And in my dreams
You still are there
With your blue eyes
And wavy hair

When I wake up
The dream is gone
You leave again
I remember we're done

No more do I wake
With a smile on my face
Like I did long ago
Now I wake like the others
Who are just like me
The ones who still can't let go
The ones who loved with all their heart
The ones who weren't meant to be

I Never Knew You

To Aid Fejza. Rest in Peace

I never knew you
Or saw your face
I've never seen your eyes.
I've never seen you dance or sing
But still, today I cry

I never knew
What you were like
Because we've never met
But if we could
I'm sure you would
Be impossible to forget

I never knew you
Or shook your hand
Or saw you come to school
I never walked down the hall
At the same time as you

I never knew you
But still today
I wish that you were here
Though your being may be gone
Your presence is always near

The One

August 4, 2009

What's wrong with you?
You've stolen my heart
I can't take it back
Since you've ripped it apart

It was so long ago
Why can't I move on?
It's too hard to forget
All the things that are gone

Why do I have
Cold tears on my face?
Why does my heart
Still have that empty place?

Why did you leave me?
All that I've ever done
Was love you to pieces
And hoped you were

The one.

Kindly

IDK I just found this in my notebook

Kindly,
Get out of my brain
leave me alone
and take away the pain

Take with you
our memories
those ones we shared
when we were "we"

Stop reminding me
of all that we had
stop stabbing my heart
don't leave me sad

Get out of my brain
so I can move on
You're the least of my worries
So please be gone

Thanks For Being There

To my beloved alda. Te dua shume shume shume
April 30, 2009


We learn to walk
but first we crawl
you took my hand
so I wouldn't fall

You pulled me up
from my hands to my feet
you kept me standing;
my balance complete

I took my first step
With you by my side
we walked together
you were my guide

You never left me
to walk alone
and with you
I have grown

We started to run
and skip through life
sure, we've tripped
but we all have our strife...

You gave me a hand
and brought me back to my feet
thats what friends do
they take of the heat

Thanks for being there
for all my falls
I'll be there for you
whenever you call

If I Told You I Loved You

April 25, 2009

If I told you I loved you
what would you say?
Would you say "I love you too?"
or push me away?

If I told you I loved you
would that be alright?
Or would you be mad
and put up a fight?

If I told you I loved you
would you run away?
Would you stop being my friend
and avoid me each day?

If I told you I loved you
could you love me too?
Or would you ignore the fact
even though its true?

What's Wrong?

Kk, I experimented with a new rhyme scheme and is terribly dramatic. I don't really like it, but whatever.

April 14, 2009

Why are these tears
on my face?
It happened so long ago
you'd think that by now
I'd give up this race

You never loved me
like I love you
I never minded it then
I dont mind it now.
This feeling isn't new

You broke my heart
You tore me apart

You ripped out my soul
You made me unwhole

You destroyed me completely

And yet I still love you

What's wrong with me?
What's wrong with you?

"Poetry"

Feb. 19

Free verse poetry
isnt poetry

at all
its just
pressing enter


in a para
graphlots
of times
and

then

calling

it poetry



Hehee... like my free verse poetry???I wrote it in like, 2 seconds XD

That Look

January 25, 2009

You give me that look
Reminding me
Of what we had
Of what used to be

You give me that look
I have to look away
I can't stand the memories
That it'll convey

You give me that look
And remind me again
That you dont love me
Like you did back then

:(

More

Jan. 20, 2009

I miss you more
Than you'll ever know
I need you more
Than I'll ever show

I love you more
Than anyone I've met
I want you more
Than anything I'll get

I care about you more
Than anyone around
I think about you more
Than anyone I've found

So why'd you have to leave me...?

Comparatively Small

Jan. 18, 2009

I sit right here
All alone
Without a soul
No one to call my own

A tear trickles down
My dry, pale face
Oh how I want
To be out of this place

To be in a place
Where hearts do not break
To be in a place
Where no one is fake

To be in a place
Where he will care
To be in a place
Where he’s always there

And yet I know
That there is no such place
As much as I wish
There is not a trace

In fact

There are people here
Who wish for places like mine
Who have bigger problems
And they too are crying

People who live
With death every day
Constantly worried
They’ll be his next prey

So really my issues
Are comparatively small
But that doesn’t mean
It won’t hurt at all

Pass Your Test

Jan. 17, 2009

It’s over now,
You and me.
Gone for good
From what I see

It’s hard to believe
That we’re done
That its over
That you won

I love you so much
But you don’t love me
So I guess this is how
It has to be

I miss you so much
You brightened my day
You were my life
But what can I say?

Any dreams I had
Are shattered and torn
Along with my heart
Which was already worn

I wish so much
That you and me
Could once again
Become a “we”

You’re amazing
You’re the best
I’m sorry I couldn’t
Pass your test

To My Alda

Jan. 16, 2009

I love you hun
you know its true
you rock my sox
oh yes you do :P

You make my happyful
and brighten my day
you're annoying as hell
but you're cool anyway

you know alot
you know it all
we have to stay friends
we cant let it fall

cuz if it does
i'll be screwed
i'll have no one
to take pics. in the nude*

I own ur face
and you own mine
we fail at life
but thats just fine


*NO i didn't really take nude pics. u have to be alda to understand :P

Untitled

Nov. 25, 2008

Sorry, I started out really inspired, but after these two stanzas i lost all inspiration...

We learn to walk
after we crawl
we know very little
nearly nothing at all

we recognize
what we can see
i recognize
you and me

Reply

Nov. 24, 2008

Reply to me
do it now
speak to me
you lazy cow

i can't focus
on a single thing
till i get that answer
so give me a ring

I'm waiting for you
so hurry up, retard
oh my god, seriously
its not really that hard...

In Your Head

November. 4

You sit on a bed
In a room painted white
you look all around
while you hug yourself tight

You begin your tale
as if it were fact
though he may not believe it
you know it is that.

You speak of a world
with theories and such
where things aren't all known
in fact, not very much

You speak of a world
where they don't talk the same
nor do they all understand
what the others say

He looks up and smiles
and chokes back a laugh
you ignore and continue
for an hour and a half

You speak of a world
where people run free
they do with no question
from what you can see

you speak of a world
which is turning around
not only that
but its shape is quite round

you speak of a world
which is blue, green and white
when you look from a distance
though few have seen such a sight

You speak of a world
so different from yours
in your mind, you live there
where your life soars

Up he stands
and snaps his book shut
"Put him with the rest
"he's clearly a nut."

As two more men
come to take you away
you close your eyes tight
and go to your world to stay

you've never gone back
to that old life again
you live through each day
in the new life your in

you know not what your doing
in that old silly life
for all you know, you're dead
forget that life of strife

This is where your staying
here forever more
until this one comes to an end
then go reopen that door

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KK, this poem is very different from usual. Its a poem about (and in the perspective of) someone who is in an alternate world from us, and is considered insane because he is, in his mind, living in our world. It's based on the idea that maybe we really are in some psycho ward, imagining this entire world. I decided to put the explanation at the end so that you may be able to interpret in your own way whilst reading it.

I Love the Way

Oct. 27, 2008

I love the way
That you're in my life
How you've always been there
Through sorrow and strife

I love the way
We sing and dance
I love that feeling:
That happy trance

I love the way
You whisper in my ear
How what you say
Is what I need to hear

I love the way
You hold me tight
You kiss my neck
Making everything right

I love the way
You know just what to do
Whatever the issue
You'll see it through

I love the way
When we're in the same place
My life brightens up
At the sight of your face

The Only Thing

Oct. 21, 2008


The only thing
I know is true
Is the fact
That I love you

Though through our lives
Things will change
But in my heart
You will remain

Every feeling for you
I've ever felt
Will always be true
It never will melt

Just Too Much

not sure of the exact date... but sometime in september...

I hate myself
For hurting you
I hate each second
No matter what I do

The tears in my eyes
Stain my face
The trickle and pour
While my thoughts race

"Was I wrong
Was I right?
How could I do this?"
My internal fight

Its so many things
I can't get them straight
Did I do the right thing?
Or was this just fate?

I can almost hear your voice
And feel your gentle touch
I don’t know if its good or bad
This pain is just too much

How We Play

This is actually a song...
Sept. 7, 2008


Word by word,
Letter by letter
Just keep listenin'
Till this song gets better

It may take a while
But you wont need to fret
It's gonna rock!
How much u wanna bet?

(chorus)
We don’t know what we're doin'
Still we don't even care
We are gonna keep rockin'
No matter who , what or where!

We'll just keep on singin
Who cares what people say?
This tune will keep on ringin
Cuz this is how we play!

(verse)
Listen up
Here's what we're sayin'
You don’t need fame
You just keep on playin'

We are just some kids
Who are playin our song
This is our time!
And we cant get it wrong!

(chorus)

(bridge)
Whatever you say
We don’t care
However we play
Its our dare

This is our thing
It aint no act
Its how we roll
That’s a fact
(repeat bridge)

(chorus)

Cuz this is how we play!

I Don't Deserve You

Sept. 6

I feel like an idjit
to what you have done
to look and compare
is almost like none.

You're better than me
it's really not fair
I dont deserve you
but still I don't care

Every single thing you do
You make me like you more
stop sucking me into youre absolute wonder
so I won't have to say my heart tore

No matter what, you'll still be better
I don't know what to do
You should have what you deserve
But still I wish you liked me too...

I Hate the Fact

Sept. 4, 2008

I hate the fact
that I care so much
I hate the fact
That I long for your touch

I hate the fact
that you're too old
I hate the fact
that you're the gold

I hat the fact
that this is true
I hate the fact
that I love you

I Lost

Aug 31, 2008

I lost today
you beat me there
I'm losing my touch
and I really care

How could you do that?
I was the best!
Why did it happen?
I can't pass the test...

The only thing I'm good at
I have now failed
there's no good reason for it
I've just been nailed...

I Didn't Think I'd Miss You

Aug 24, 2008

I didn't think I'd miss you
but now I know I do
It may just be a little
still you've been there through and through

I didn't think I'd miss you
but now I really see
though our lives have grown apart
your still a part of me

I didn't think I'd miss you
and now you're far away
Sorry I didn't say it
still you're with me every day

So Much on My Mind

July 17, 2008

I've so much on my mind
but nothing to say
overwhelmed by my thoughts
they're all blurry and gray


Thoughts come in and out
they're stuck in a mass
I cant begin to sort them out
But I can not let them pass

Emotions are high
I cant bring them down
depression has settled
and I'm left with a frown

I'll figure it out
and hope for the best
put pessimism aside
and wait for the rest

Out of My Mind

I'm going crazy right now
bored out of my mind
nothing to do
nothing to find

I sit in a chair
Pencil in hand
Notebook on lap
Not looking so grand

A thing by my side
Not wanting to leave
I cant write a word
'Cause of this little pet peeve

No inspiration at all
in this little dead place
boredome takes over
it fills up the space.

I Need You

July 2, 2008

In your arms
I want to stay
right there with you
and never stray

like other girls
i dont want to be
i want to be special
why cant you see?

i want to be the one
that brightens up your life
that always makes you happy
that takes away the strife

i know you'll never love me
in the same way i love you
you'll probably never need me
but i so truly do

Wish it Could Happen

July 1

The sweetest ones
go slowly by
you never know
unless you try

the things they say
will tell the truth
you didn't know how you felt
till you slid out of that booth

you love him
you cant deny it now
you wish it could happen
but have no clue how

its impossible
your to far apart
in life and in age
for that thing to start

maybe wait
a year or more
he'll come running up to you
straight up to your door

People

July 1, 2008

People are great
people are not
some you hate
some alot

they bring you in
they take you out
they make you grin
they make you shout

they do one thing
they think another
they make your heart sing
but cant be your lover

you love to be near them
you hate it too
they can make your life grim
but can change it too

Some really bad limericks

ok... so these are all the really bad limericks i've written so far this summer

a man once had a piano
but sold it for an ipod nano
he had 99 songs
and 100 thongs
the prettiest of which was camo

there once was a bright orange vest
which covered a large, hairy chest
its owner was manly
like all guys named stanley
and wasn't known for being welll dressed

there once was a girl with pink pants
that were filled to the brim with ants
she jumped all around
and made a weird sound
and it looked like a jungle woman dance

there once was an emergency door
whichwas owned by a man who was poor
it always stayed closed
while the poor man dozed
because opening it was a real chore

ther once was a man with no belt
which was a real problem he felt
his pants would fall down
so he looked like a clown
and was covered with an animal pelt

there once was a girl with no hair
which was much for her to bear
she screamed and she cried
and eventually died
well, actually, collapsed in a chair

there once was a guy named ted
who's best friend was codenamed fred
they lived their whole lives
without any wives
and had no one to be with in bed

there once was a guy with a hat
who marreid a girl named pat
they lived in a house
with a tiny, young mouse
but on it one day they sat

there once was a line of airplanes
which was followed by a line of trains
they sat there all day
never going astray
and eventually went completely insane

there once was a girl in the air
whose head was full of blonde hair
she flew in the night
since that just seemed right
and never had a single care

there once was a blue shiny lake
which was actually totally fake
if you went in a boat
it rarely would float
which really sucked, for goodness sake!

there once was a cloud that was pink
and one day it started to sink
it came down to the ground
without making a sound
and then went back up in a blink

(u can tell i was at music school for this one):
there once was a fat opera singer
who was also a pigeon wringer
she could rach a high "g"
which in the key of B flat is "ti"
and whats a word ending with inger?

there once was a tall blonde boy
who got a brand new toy
he played with it alot
and another he bought
at least, thats what they say

there once was a bright blue shirt
which was worn by a girl who would flirt
the day it was worn
it was purposely torn
by a girl with a mismatching skirt

another free verse... bleh

heres another free verse. our main focus was personification

its called "Love's a Dictator"

Love embraces me
but i refuse to hug back
he comes at me full on
but i push him
away who needs him?
after what he's done
giving me an apology i cannot accept

though still, anger looks through him
unable to attack
as bad as love was
anger lets him be
because anger cant beat love
everyone knows
that love conquers all
yup, love is the dictator here.

free verse... ugh

ok, so these r my free verse poems i had to write for class. i hate free verse, but whatever

title: a day with a glass of life

dawn of life embraces me
filling me up
like a glass of water

noon is a far away place
the day will be half full
half empty

the life will be half full
half empty

the glass as well

then afternoon
its almost full
retirement

dusk of doom
it reaches the top
the end is near

night falls
the glass over flows
life is over




Title: Drama

Drama is like a thanksgiving dinner
the first part is good
but the end is best
the first course is small;
receiving your scripts
it starts to get bigger
with practice and blocking
then the turkey;
like dress rehearsal.
finally dessert, sweet and delicious
the performance
for everyone to see
in the end you fell such satisfaction
your filled to the brim
drama is like a thanks giving dinner;
the best is at the end.


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ugh, hate those poems, and i have to write one more free verse tonight! will have it up soon!

Limericks Galore :D

today we had discussion group up at Mr. Vanest's, and i ended up staying for dinner, cuz Mr Vanest and I were having a wonderful time making up limericks. we wrote tons and tons, but here are our best ones:

There once was a man from tirana
whose hand was removed by a piranha
he screamed and he cried
and he almost died
and had it replaced by a banana

(this one is only Mr Vanests, but i put it n e way)
There was a guy who was me
who couldn't write a limerick to save his life

There once was a farmer from spain
who couldn't remember his name
he asked his best horse
who told him of course
but then he forgot it again

there once was a chicken from hell
who cast a ridiculous spell
he made all the blokes
into artichokes
and all of the women as well

there once was a colorful shoe
that was worn by a lady called sue
put over a sock
it went for a walk
and stepped in some fresh camel poo

there once was a girl with black hair
that sprouted up from everywhere
she needed it cut
but not on her butt
because she wanted it there

there once was a pan of hot water
that fred jacobs poured over his daughter
it went in her ear
and came out her rear
and when it came out it was hotter

there once was a man doing dishes
and in his hot water were fishes
they swam all about
and tried to get out
which was actually one of their wishes

Limericks

There once was a man named Fred
Who lived all his life in a bed
He never got up
Not even to sup
And one day awoke to be dead

A man once knocked on a door
it opened to show a fat whore
he ran far away
but she caught him that day
and wrestled him down to the floor

There once was an ugly old witch
who married a son of a bitch
they hated each other
so she married his brother
who was so uncannily rich

Haikus

Sorry. I had to write Haikus for Class:

Buzzyful Thingy
Buzzyful thingy
Looks at me attackishly
So I run away

Flutterby
The butterfly sits
Then flutters eccentricly
As if it were scared

I Am Me

May 29, 2008. This is to the general world.

You can like me,
You can hate me
Well just bite me
If you rate me.

I don't care.
Why should you?
What do you think
they can do?

Be yourself.
Be who you are.
Fake is for losers.
You can shine like a star.

I am me.
You are you.
So please don't
Confuse the two.

He is he.
The same with she.
We make a we.
Just let it be.

A person isn't always
as a person does
Life isn't lived
Just "because."

You have your reason
and I have mine,
But we can't reach our goals
wating in line

Too Much Too Explain

May 29, 2008. I had to write a list poem for class.

Living life
lots of love
never strife
simple as a dove
being together
all alone
thoughts of forever
but not really that long
came too close
did too much
a dying rose
from too much touch
bumps on the way
trip and fall
nothing to say
nothing at all
problems alot
sadness and pain
thats what I've got
too much too explain

Where are You?

April 1, 2008.

Where are you?
I do not know
somewhere out there
at least that's so

I shouldn't care so much
I should accept that I'm too late
but you have got the best of me
maybe it's just fate.

No One Will Last

No date. It does rhyme... just not well

No one will last
they all leave someday
leaving the good times in the past.

Each person you gain
is a person you lose
always leaving you with even more pain.

Friends won't stay
the same with boys
everywhere, every day.

Most Fatal Curse

Feb. 12, 2008

I need to move on
that life is the past
T should know by now
that these things never last

I should focus on now
and not on then
but I can't help but wonder
what may have happend and what could have been

I can let my feelings go
try to get over it
but it's like giving up part of your soul
and not just a little bit

I'll miss the little things you did:
your fingers in mine
but also the big things too:
how our lives intertwined

Life was never easy
but now it seems worse
living life without you
is like a fatal curse

Please Come Back

Nov. 25, 2007 This poem actually doesn't rhyme (and is total crap)

I feel forgotten
again
I feel alone
again

It's amazing how life is
without you
It really sucks
without you

I guess it's partly
me
For for being an idiot:
me

But you didn't exactly
notice
That I was feeling bad. All I want is for you to
notice

I want you
back
Please come
back

Your Peeps

Nov. 24, 2007

You have your people
including me
though now I realize
that thought's just a fantasy

Hang with him
Hang with her
Who needs me?
I'm just a blur

It's happened once
It's happened twice
It's happened so many times
I lost count after thrice

You don't need me
but I need you
but you don't really care
even though I do

I Miss You

Nov. 23, 2007

All the people I love
are fading away
each step that I take
every day
sometimes it's their fault
sometimes it's not
but being apart
often hurts alot

Making other plans
or parents not being nice
I'm left in the cold;
cold as ice

I wish we could hang out more
I guess the fault is partially mine
but blaming myself
sometimes feels like a crime

It's not my fault
they like others more
I need to learn to accept it
even if it makes me feel sore

I guess that what I'm trying to say
is that I really miss you
I wish I could knock down our wall of gray
but I'm feeling kind of blue

Fright and Worry

Nov. 20, 2007 (i really hate this poem)

Your messages,
all that they say
worry me
in an uncanny way

You say scary things
how your angry and mad
I want to do something
but I'm locked up by my dad

and so are you...

Wach message you send
worries me more
thoughts of you without a friend
make me want to go running out my door

and run to your home

It's not so far
then you won't be alone
but the ground is thick as tar

and the same for you...

I'd do anything
to be with you
to hug and to hold you
to let my heart sing

The joy it gives me to hear you
to know your ok
to know you'll be fine
to know your a lighter shade of blue

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(like I said, I hate it. Really hate it.)

Clique

Nov. 23, 2007

You think you're so great
you think you rule
but what I honestly think
is you're totally uncool

You try to act cool
you don't like the people who dont
I act like i don't care
still, I'll be myself, even if you wont

You think I'm retarded
you think I suck
Because my friends rock
You like your clique? Fine but I don't give a fuck

You think I'm weird
You think I'm strange
But thats who I am
I guess being yourself is out of your range

You think I don't know how you feel about me
you think that to it, I'm blind
but I really do notice
when you laugh at me from behind

You think it's ok
you think it's alright
I'll act like I'm fine
though deep down, it's hurting inside

It's Different This Time

Nov. 12, 2007. Written for our first poetry unit.

They say we're all gonna die
but still, I wonder why
any minute it could happen
at least that's what they say

The ice caps are melting
the plants are whilting
the earth is so hot
that its causing an ice age!

Yes I know its getting hot,
I'm not saying it's not
but it was cold from the 40's to the 70's
and warm before then

and yet we're still here...

Different? That's what you say?
The criminal Americans in their large getaway cars
George "Bushes" growing up and up and up
ripping holes in the ozone and past the stars

So kill the cows (they're all mad anyway)
let the trees grow
we need to breath
though it increases the CO2 emissions you know?

So basically what I'm trying to say
is that global warming is a major issue of today
and cooling was yesterday...
but anyway...

It's different this time

so much for heart...

Nov. 23, 2007.

You say you heart me
I know u do
and yet, I never see you

You say you love me
You say it all the time
but then why do I feel the need to write these rhymes?

One day
you push me away
you tell me to apologize
for what I didn't do

You say you're sorry, and of course I say
my usual answer, "It's alright, it's ok"
But really I'm crying
and no one knows but you and me

I ask you to come over
but the answers always no
always with excuses
"I'm doing homework" or "My mom says I cant go"

You have other people now
I say I understand
But I'm sorry
I can't not be what I am

I still want to be your friend
and I'd die without you
we can work it out
and for now, I'll act like I'm not blue